The Unthinkable Choice.

**I haven't meant to leave Ya'll hanging for so long, I've been flying a TON (I'm a flight attendant. I'll get to that way later)!! **

Anyway, let's move on to what happened next!! 

THREE special needs kiddos?

The writing was on the wall. I needed to do what was in the best interest of those two twin girls and finding them parents that could provide for them while giving them everything they needed emotionally, mentally, and physically - that was the answer that was staring me in the face.

How this played out in my mind does not match how it went in others.

We were babies back then and remembering 31 years ago is going to look differently for each of us.

Period.

It doesn't matter how the adoption happened that matters, it was that whatever was going to be best for those two innocent babies, was what was going to take place. The adoption process didn't happen right away in fact, it would take several months to interview and prepare, for it to become final.  

The girls, as I mentioned, were very small when they were born which meant they would need to spend some time (several months), in the hospital. They both had health problems other than just being premature, so surgeries for both girls would be necessary. There were shunts, neurological issues, and lung development problems, to name a few. They had good strong hearts but would deal with other health abnormalities that would take a toll on their little bodies and minds. 

After about 5 months of being in the hospital, the girls would need a home to go home to, and that looked like it was going to be foster care. Fortunately, we were blessed with an amazing woman named Linda that cared for both girls for the next several months. She kept them together, she loved them, and Linda took care of them like they were her own. It was hard for her when they finally did get adopted, as she had grown quite a bond with them.

It was hard for us all.

I had visited and held the girls a couple of times over these months and letting go, was not going to be an easy thing to do.

It was the most grown, mature decision I had made to date, but it wasn't an easy one by any means.